tears .

its like everything i do , i do it wrong . i cnt make annybody happy . i miss my mom so freakin much ... & chavs . i cnt even think about them without crying . a picture a tex a shirt a color anything & everything reminds me of them . i talk about them like theyr dead , basically ill never get to see them again . my mind begins to wander & thats all i can think about . right now im trying to eat some pops [theyre my moms favorite , not because i miss her) because my stomach cnt take the pain & its never ending . i feel guilty for staying , why dnt they feel guilty for leaving ? =/

Bein tired bein sad bein hungry bein happy bein afraid bein relentless
not bein able 2 speak not bein able 2 care not bein able 2 be real not
bein able 2 hate actin irrationally actin out of character actin like ur
there actin like u care actin 2 act out bein responsible bein stupid
bein grown bein little bein smart bein funny watchn cars watchn ppl
watchn birds Watchn them fly watchn love watchn jealousy watchn fear
fightn w. ur family fightn w. Their beliefs fightn w. The man fightn w.
Mother Nature argree'n w. Music argree'n w. A story agree'n w. The facts
agree'n w. ur dog agree 2 disagree Usin ppl usin drugs usin statements
usin the wrong answer where u are where they are where we are lost a
life lost a sentence lost a word lost a kiss say goodbye 2 forcefulness
say goodbye 2 goodbye say goodbye 2 hello say goodbye 2 loneliness say
goodbye 2 every1

I wrote this the other nite ... story of a champion .. Fucket

this is my bestfriend .
we always fight .
we always hav fun .
we always always hav new hoes =P

jay jay laFlay & sam b. Joness

no homo tho i kno how she is ahahahaha

"break bread or its bad !"

"this dick aint for jus anybody ."

"u really dnt love me nomore ?"

we be clownin !! but yeap , =D

fill up ma cup lets get fuckd up BWAAA

*this was totally me this morning ; hella bored . whut else . hahah ...
before or after them niggas tried to set me & jay up ...
muther fuckers ; bet they wont try it again =P

LMFAO

arite lasweek mannie stayd tha whole week at my house . (manniez mcnasts brother) (mcnast is my roommate/cousin Jacs girlf) lol anyway .. i was using his phone ta send pictures to my mainthang who i rarely see . andddd i guess i forgot to delete some of the pixs !! soooo while we were at the hospital waiting for Autumn (7lbs 6oz , 19 3/4 , 910pm feb 24/09) to be born .. haha his girlf Van i guess saw a picture of my titties in his phone .. and then she proceded to show everyone in the waiting room lmao dumb bytch thought id be mad or something , but HONEY I HAVE PERFECT TITTIES !!! hahahahaha stupid bytch !! anyyyyywayyyy !!!!!!!! man i went n stayd tha nite @ sisthangs house ... shyt was dope

11.20.08

0MGGG . ii wasnt by myself f0r my birthday .. b0yy shit was ₢R∀₢kΦ₪ t00 ! ii had s0 much fun 0n my bday , even th0 every1 was ina bad m00d , at least they were all t0gether :) fuck yea ! ii didnt sm0ke 0r drink 0r fuck ... n ii dnt care . thas jus pastimes that ii dnt hav time f0r . mwhaha .

ive been w0rking my ass 0ff t00 .. ii jus startd at t0g0s & ii w0rk at a daycare . im n0t getting en0ugh h0urs at t0g0s th0 ! BUT the d0llar st0re wants 2 hire me .. s0 this shud be g00d lol

jacup , shag & ii ... we g0t an apartment . s0 gay th0 , we g0 2 jacs m0ms h0use every weekend . uggh they irritate tha fuck 0utta me . they think theyre s0 much better than every1 else . >:[ ANYWAY were m0ving int0 the tw0 bedr00m ina c0uple weeks .

n 0mg my m0ms a fuckin l0ser ! she`s steady hatin 0n me .. like 0kai h0e , y0ure skinnier than me but n0t every1 cares if ure skinny 0r n0t . she keeps g0ing 2 these j0b interviews l00king like a slut instead 0f jus being herself .. idk whut t0 tell her .. FUCCCKEETT !!



whut d0 y0u think 0f WESTERN CARRER C0LLEGE ? Hmmm